My one and only job is to stand in my own unique frequency of love.
It is not my job to take on the frequency of my husband.
That is not love, that is the opposite of love. Relinquishing my own full power and making it someone else’s responsibility.
The moment I attempt to focus on the vibrational frequency of someone else I immediately put us both in darkness.
When I was born I became part of a family, each with its own unique vibration and together we also created a family vibration.
I was very aware of each tone and if it was out of tune I tried to adjust my own vibration to bring it back into tune.
I became very focused on this function. I accepted the responsibility and made it my own. It became who I was.
When I married I offered my vibration to him. At first I didn’t but over time I let my own vibration become completely drowned out and accepted his.
I have never felt right, it doesn’t feel good. It doesn’t work anymore. All the rooms are too dark. We are both exhausted and unhappy.
I must release this cycle. What is mine is mine, what is his is his. I don’t have to take on any of his vibrations.
There is nothing “wrong” with him at all. His vibration is perfectly suited for him. If I force on him the responsibility of my vibration then his becomes lowered, distorted, confused, and so does mine.
I have to acknowledge, accept, allow, love, honor and develop my own unique vibration. Strong and steady. I am practicing and I am using the outside conditions to check in with my condition.
My unique vibration is easy, whimsical, joyful and silly.
This is not for everyone. I will not force my vibration on anyone anymore. Thinking mine is the “right” way… It is the right way for me. It is the only one that fits me, that suites me.
My frequency is not about structure, or rules, or regulations. My frequency enjoys playtime, free time, creative time.
I have dimmed my frequency for so long. No, it was never completely gone. I could always laugh and enjoy life even in the must unnatural situations to my frequency. My real job now, my only true responsibly is to focus on my bliss. Of course this bliss looks different for each and every soul.
For me I must quickly differentiate between my vibration and if I am offering or taking on another. I must be the tree, I must ride the motorcycle alone. But I can ride in a group together, each expressing our own unique vibrational frequency.
Everything in the universe is out of tune until I accept my own vibration and master my own unique tone.
I will never master my own unique tone if I am focused on “helping” another master theirs.
All I am succeeding in doing is delaying perfection, delaying happiness, delaying communion, connection and unity. Delaying Harmony!
There is no “right”, there is not “wrong”, there is only delay.
I cannot wait any longer. The price it too high. I have had a glimpse of what walking in my own unity looks like and I love it. I want this for myself every minute of the day. I want this for my husband, my family, everyone I know, everyone in the world.
I must be my own tone, my own unique tone and allow, respect others enough to let them develop theirs.
It is not my job to force others to understand or get my tone.
It is not my job to force other to accept or join my tone.
It is not my job to focus on or feel the need to fix or change someone else tone.
Perfect my unique tone is the only way out of my dark cloud of doubt and insecurity.
Thinking someone else has the answers for my questions… Everyone has answers and some may even get pretty close. But that is still not the TRUTH for me.
What is my TRUTH for me? No one needs to fit into my snowflake. No one can because that is how we are made. My view of life, the world, the source of all is just that, “my view”.
If I am out of alignment, out of sync, out of tune, it is because I am asking the question about who I am to the wrong person.
Everyone I see gives me the opportunity to see what I want or don’t want for myself. That is their only function that I need from them. It is not their job to adjust to my idea about who I think they should be.
Am I willing to accept my rightful place in the heavens or will I continue to be confused?
It is becoming so uncomfortable to give away or take on.
I am unzipping the layers of doubt that have prevented my true song. I cannot delay. I notice very quickly when I do.
My body truly has been allowed to experience itself as a perfect communication device. Will the message be received? Will I receive someone else message? Will someone else receive mine?
FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS on your own tone. That is the only note I am asked to play.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for the opportunities I am given that are the gateways to my TRUTH. No matter how hurtful they may seem at the time, I alway get my clarity. My snowflake is perfect! And so is Yours! Even if you don’t like mine and I don’t like yours it does not diminish either in any way shape or form. Not for a moment, not for eternity. We are all in harmony if we let ourselves accept our own truth. Amen.
The Core of Peace 