What is it that I fear? What is it that makes my stomach react? What is my stomach trying to tell me?
Am I afraid of the numbers on the page, the “idea” that I created this and how am “I” going to get rid of it?
This is the old me, these are the creations of an untrained, fear based mind. Am I afraid of what I am capable of creating? Am I afraid that I must drag these old creations with me into my “new life” even though they don’t fit and don’t seem to belong to me anymore? It is not just that I don’t want these debts. It is that I don’t need them. I no longer need excuses. They no longer express my belief about me. I feel the desire to shed them like the pounds that are falling off my body. My pores have literally opening up to release and move and flow through and out of my body. I am shedding my skin and I have no desire to express the idea of something that I do not believe.
I have handed this idea of debt over. Why do I still have fear and anxiety? What is left? Do I still believe I am not worth being forgiven for that which I didn’t understand? I know I am just a baby bird and I desire to learn how to use my new wings to show me how to live in this new world. I got the rainbow around the shadow of the plane. I am getting so many signs. I accept, honor and love that which I created without the eyes to see. I hand it all over to you my beautiful friends JC & HS. Take them all including the fear they create within my body. I honor your ability to change these “wrong ideas” and mis-creations into something beautiful. I do fear my unchecked mind. I see the power that it has. I seek only to stay in unity always. Perfect, whole and complete.
Creating from a new core, creating with purpose, creating with compassion, insight, direction, following and only allowing for God’s Will united with mine.
How do I express this new Core of Peace without fear of forgetting it all???
I must stay in the circle, always connecting to keep myself on the path worth being on. Everything else can disappear from view and I will not miss it at all. The core of fear has created the opposite of any desire I have ever had. The opposite of how I feel now. The opposite of love. Basically because I have always spend most of my time focused on what I do not want. And of course I got just that.
Please take this burden of the idea that I must pay this debt, owe, make penance for my mistakes. These are not my ideas. Who do I think I still owe for my mistakes? Who do I think must be paid? Who do I think must forgive me before I can go forward? What is all this and why is it showing up? I just want to share my joy. I do want everyone to join me in this new freedom, this new core I am feeling and experiencing. I want everyone to join no matter how they got there, here. I want us all to leave our past in the dust. Completely free to begin now in this instant, in this moment.
If I believe there is still a price to pay then I am learning and expressing, thinking and sharing that which I no longer accept or believe. Why? Who am I trying to PLEASE? There is that word I saw yesterday. Interesting… What am I personifying?
STUPIDITY PERSONIFIED
The words of my 3rd grade teacher. Stupidity Personified!
WOW I am personalizing all my creations or should I say misguided creations. The only one I owe is me, the only one I need to forgive is me. There is no one else to fear because it is all me. If I am in unity I will always get my answer with complete clarity and complete grace and ease. Anything else that comes in STOP, NOTICE your stomach, it never lies.
STOP… I am loved! (inspiration from my amazing sister)
STOP… I forgive you!
STOP… Lets try this again
STOP… These “ideas” are not your children. It is okay to let them starve from you lack of attention.
Your only being guided to nurture the “ideas” that are your TRUTH, coming from your light and Core of Peace. Those ideas that have come from the core of fear do not need to be secretly fed in the darkness. Let them die there. Let them starve. They are not worthy of your attention. Change your mind, accept your do-over. Let it go! Know that once you put them at the alter and surrender them to never darken your door again. We will set us all free.
Thank you sweet stomach! I am not afraid of your knowing and your desire to communicate to me for my highest good. I am eternally grateful.
This power we have is magnificent and awe inspiring and in our own hands. We can choose to accept our responsibility or hand it over.
I made this debt and only I have the power to release it from my world.
Accept your own power and responsibility and it is seen as a gift from God and the heavens, a true miracle.
Reject your own power and responsibility and it will seem as if you are alone in the world left to fight and beg and steal for every last crumb.
I reject the personification of this prison I understand now to have been of my own making. I humbly request your assistance to release now and remove forever any and all ideas in my mind that are not the TRUTH about me.
I accept my responsibility and I release the function of transformation to the HS.
I accept my responsibility to notice, rewind and choose again.
Thank you, thank you, thank you and AMEN
YOU CAN DO ANYTHING OVER. ACCEPT THE DO OVER, REWIND, RE-DO
Can I honestly say that I really do wish to remove and release the idea of having to eternally pay a debt for every mistake I have ever made? The answer would have to be YES I DO want to release this idea. I am ready, I am willing, I am grateful!
I would not wish this idea on even my so called worst enemy. It is not my idea!
I no longer drag this bolder around my world and into everyone else’s back yard.
Eternally grateful, Sparkle Diamond
The Core of Peace 