The Wakeup Call! (9-9-18 trip to SC)

Preface:  Two things happened to my sister while our entire family was staying at a hotel.  ONE… she tried to call her room and they said “that room does not exist” (are you sure, yes I am sure) and TWO…  they requested a wakeup call for 5:15am, the woman took down the information but the call never came.  I was thinking while watching all of this, how interesting.

Didn’t get the wakeup call…

What does this mean for me?

I think it signifies that you can no longer leave your fate in someone else’s hands. It is your responsibility, no more excuses. Follow your own guidance, trust yourself. There is no more time to waste. You have spent 51 years letting others lead you so you wouldn’t have to make any of your own decisions. So you would have the prefect excuses for why things don’t fit, don’t feel right, aren’t good enough.

It was always someone else’s fault. I am literally casting fate to the wind by following everyone else. I can’t waste any more time.

TRUST, TRUST, TRUST YOURSELF

Your mind is part of God’s. I am very holy. (I have not been able to get past this lesson it keeps bringing me deeper and deeper. It is so powerful)

Only I can know my own path and on the flip side I need to relinquish my focus on others and thinking I know their path and what is best for them. I have been given another chance at living. My plane didn’t crash and neither did my other sister’s. I get the message.

LET IT GO, LET IT GO, LET IT GO

Trust yourself, trust your gut, trust you ideas because they are not yours when you let the ego go, they become part of God’s. When you have fear that is not the voice to trust. When you have peace you know you are on your own path and listening to the true voice, the voice you can trust. Your voice which is in the mind of God.

It is so simple…

TRUST PEACE, NOT FEAR

Joyous anticipation is the only experience worth having. I can love unconditionally, meaning I can love without “helping”. I can love without expectations. I can love without hoping it will be the strength someone needs to fix themselves. I am the only one that needs fixing. I am the one that needs the attitude adjustment. I am the one that needs to trust themselves. I am the one that needs to get healthy in body and mind. I am the one that needs to be consistent. I am the one that needs to make up their mind. I am the one who needs to take charge. I am the one who needs to take action. I am the one who needs to, who needs to WAKEUP!

TRUST, TRUST, TRUST YOURSELF

LET GO, LET GO, LET GO AND LET GOD

Who is sick? Me or him? Oh boy, I need to take responsibility. I need to own it. I need to take my life back. I have to release my husband from his death sentence or I am going to kill us both! Can I live with that responsibility? This is true, I must release myself. This is my only job.

DECIDE, DECIDE, DECIDE

Who are you? Make up your mind. Live it with confidence and dignity. Let it go. Who is sick? Who is confused? Who is a victim of their body and mind? Who is unhealthy? Who? Who is the one that needs your help now? Your attention? Your love? Your focus? Who?!? My kids? My husband? My friends? My pets? My house? My bank account? Who???

Who needs to wakeup???

There is a room for me but it does not exist until I acknowledge it. Until I wake up and realize that it is all on me. I accept the challenge! I embrace the opportunity! I will make that room exist. I have something to offer. It is my energy. Do I want it at full power or do I want to dim it to the point of non-existence? When I am focused outward my dimmer stitch is turned way down and I do not exist.

When I am centered and flowing in complete balance and harmony then I am burning bright, on full power, I EXIST! And only then will I have something worth sharing. Just being is enough! This feels true to me, this feels right, this must be me because I am not confused. I am not afraid. I am peaceful and I look toward the day with joyous anticipation.

I vow that I will no longer have the need to scream and yell at the world for not meeting my expectations because it was I that put my own responsibility into their hands. How could anyone live up to mine? They gladly take on this responsibility. It is so easy. “Is that it?” said my sister to the lady at the front desk. “Yes, that is it.” was her reply. “Are you sure?” said my sister. “Yes I am sure” was the reply. They seem so confident. They seem so sure. They seem so capable.

Yet, how could they be. If they take on “my responsibility” then what happens to their light? Yes, they want to “help”. I get it, I want to “help” too. But where has it gotten any of us? Where? Why do we keep doing the same thing over and over and over? Handing our power over and wondering why we see a world that appears so dark, so grim.

This is my aim, this is my only objective.

PEACE, PEACE, PEACE

Move in my light on full power accepting only that which is my responsibility and so become, express, love my life on full power the way it was meant to be.

Thank you dearest sister for staying in the room that doesn’t exist. Room 413.

Follow Your Bliss???

FOLLOW YOUR BLISS?…This is the question I have been asking myself recently and I have just been given the answer (for me that is). I am so grateful beyond words. I was given the gift of experiencing Bliss literally on Bliss Rd. which showed me with perfect clarity that it can and does exist. But now it has turned around and become something even better. Always better than my wildest dreams. I truly had no idea!

I just realized what BLISS means for ME!

Being able to express my highest-self, my true feelings, easily, gracefully and with complete confidence.

Giving my highest-self the freedom to show the world who she is and how she feels about who we are, who we really are and what we are capable of.

Within the search for the “Core of Peace” I first discovered my connection to my higher-self and so felt the connection to my bothers and sisters. And then I was automatically pulled into the Source of All.

I want to embrace everyone. My higher-self has been given, finally allowed the opportunity to show her true colors. Beautiful rainbow colors of joy and love.

Bliss isn’t something you “find” or “get”. It is from within and is wanting, needing to burst out. It can’t be contained this fabulous soul.

The “Core of Fear” kept me so contained. The “Core of Fear” was never able to express how she felt. She was too afraid to feel.

It is a ghost now. Meaningless. Only a shadowy reminder of a past that is just that.

I have unleashed the Bliss. My inner dragon is flying free.

I bring it with me. It can’t be contained.

I am free to love. I am free to feel. I am free to express. I am free to burst into this world in TRUTH. I can’t be contained.

Thank you Roy! What a gift, what a blessing, what a day!

(NOTE: Thank you Janice for the beautiful reminder, three perfect words on a stone sitting in my kitchen, patiently waiting to be seen and understood “Follow Your Bliss”)

Bliss is not something you follow. It is something you feel and can’t help but want to share! I can’t be contained now, the glass ceiling has been shattered. I am free. Sparkle Diamond is free.

In gratitude to Lesson 35 – My mind is part of God’s. I am very holy.

The Dude Abides! is the message I was given today (9-5-18)

Preface:   After a rough evening of shifting out of my center and taking others with me on my crazy train, I decided I needed to find some way to get me back on track.  I picked a video on my phone to try and help me get back in alignment. I choose You Tube and Abraham Hicks titled “Change Your Vibration not your Condition! WOW it was just what I needed.  It must have really got stuck into my subconscious.

I JUST STOPPED IN TO SEE WHAT CONDITION MY CONDITION WAS IN

If any of you have seen “The Big Lebowski” you will understand this reference. Man those Coen Brothers are connected to the Source of All.

So at about 2:30am this morning a wind opens my front door and blows into my house and wakes me up.  Okay, it didn’t literally open the front door but I did check to see if it was open because it sure felt that way. And the thought that came immediately to mind was…  you guest it… I just stopped in to see what condition my condition was in.  I am dancing inside and I can picture the dude coming around the corner bopping to the beat. I feel the beat as I repeat this phrase.

It felt like Sparkle Diamond and all the angels and guides woke me up and I had to write down what I was experiencing.

It doesn’t matter what I do while I am on this earth plain, it only matters the vibration I bring to any condition. What I bring to the condition. I have control over the condition!  The condition has no control over me.

THE DUDE ABIDES!

Now I am still not quite awake and I am brought to another great movie that I love, “Kung Fu Panda”.  These two movies are merging together in my mind.

WHAT IS THE INGREDIENT IN THE SECRET INGREDIENT SOUP?

The key doesn’t get me out of the box, the key unlocks the mystery of the secret in the secret ingredient soup.

Now that I left the box behind what will I bring to the soup? What will I add to the condition. What do I bring to each and every circumstance in my life? What do I bring in? How do I effect the condition?

Not how is this “new” condition going to effect me. There are no “new” conditions only “new” ways of experiencing the same conditions over and over.

I thought I was so controlled by the world. My moods would swing throughout the day, week, month.

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Oh-Yeah

I JUST STOPPED IN TO SEE WHAT CONDITION MY CONDITION WAS IN!

My condition wasn’t very centered last night. Abraham Hicks used the perfect words to guide me gently back to the vital core, the center, the alignment.

Thank you for bringing me off center so that I could learn how to get myself back and learn the lesson of what the real power you have is, and how to use it.

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Oh-Yeah

The Dude Abides!

(there was a frog in my house this morning, I noticed him immediately. But that is a whole other story)

Thank you, thank you, thank you! Thank you for never giving up on me! I am not alone!

HERE ARE THE LYRICS IF ANYONE IS INTERESTED.

I woke up this morning with the sundown shining in
I found my mind in a brown paper bag within
I tripped on a cloud and fell-a eight miles high
I tore my mind on a jagged sky
I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in

Yeah, yeah, oh-yeah, what condition my condition was in

I pushed my soul in a deep dark hole and then I followed it in
I watched myself crawling out as I was a-crawling in
I got up so tight I couldn’t unwind
I saw so much I broke my mind
I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in

Yeah, yeah, oh-yeah, what condition my condition was in

Someone painted April Fool in big black letters on a Dead End sign
I had my foot on the gas as I left the road and blew out my mind
Eight miles outta Memphis and I got no spare
Eight miles straight up downtown somewhere
I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in

I said I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in
Yeah
yeah
oh-yeahWriter/s: MICKEY NEWBURY
Publisher: Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Lyrics licensed and provided by LyricFind

 

Lesson 34 – I could see Peace instead of this

What is the message of the Mazda?

That was my question and I looked to my next lesson in “A Course in Miracles” to find the answer.  I just happened to be at this Lesson.

hmmmm… I could see Peace instead of this.

It goes on to say Peace of mind in clearly an internal matter. It is from your mind that a peaceful perception of the wold arises.  Eyes closed, inner world…

I consider the Lesson.

The car is outside of me, it has no power over me or my peace of mind. I made this car and the problems it has. I made this car and I made the issue that is “seeming” to not be resolved with it.

I keep saying “interesting”. I could replace that with “how curious”. I am a detective now.  Looking for the hidden treasure in the deepest corners of my mind. I will find the answer because I asked the question. Because I must believe there is an answer available or I wouldn’t have bothered to ask. I think I am worth the effort or I wouldn’t bother at all.

What is the message? Where is my peace of mind? Only inside me. Never outside of me. So I am in charge 100%. I am in charge completely. There are no levels of difficulty. There are no levels when it comes to your peace of mind. You either have it or you don’t.

Peace of mind is not something you must guard. Although it does seem like it needs guarding. I could see peace instead of this. That is Lesson 34.  Could I, could I see peace instead of…

Could I? Should I? Would I? Why can’t I? Why shouldn’t I? Why wouldn’t I?

Back to the car…

I was not the one who damaged the car. I was not even in the car when it happened.

It is not my responsibility. Is it? What am I not taking ownership of in my world?

If I have created everything that is happening, why do I still think I can pick and choose what I take ownership of?

I am responsible for everything I see. I am also responsible for how I see everything I see. So, I see this car. I have blamed someone else for the damage. What damage have I done by not accepting my responsibility for my own creations. Rejecting them, not loving them, pushing the responsibility off on some other poor soul.

I have to release the snake from my grip. (that is another story but also happened today, no coincidence)

I must release my focus on the other if I want to set myself free.

I must take responsibility for everything I see. Everything in my world.

I am so sorry, it is not your fault! Please forgive me! I release you now. I am sorry. I let go of my grip, you are not to blame, I didn’t see. I didn’t know but now I do.

I release the chains I have placed on you. I release the excuses to not see peace. It is my choice, it is my world. It is my mind. I AM FREE. I have released you.

How many people has my idea about the car effected? All these people involved. I release you all. We are all at peace because I see peace now instead of this.

WOW, I am always given a beautiful situation to use, a perfect situation to get to the heart of each and every lesson. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

What happens now? What else am I not releasing because I have not claimed ownership?

The car is in your hands. I am choosing to see peace. I have complete faith in my “Core of Peace”. It touches everything I see. It is in me, it is my “Peace of Mind”. I am driving the car now straight into the magic garden. Can I pick anyone up?

Wait if I see peace instead of this, does that mean I have created peace now? For the world? Have I changed the world? Have I received? Yes, I have! The greatest gift of all is knowing you have the power of your own peace of mind.

With help from the Universe of course. I am never alone.

 

“Message #2 Received” (after heating up lunch on 9-4-18)

I just heated up my awesome new recipe from “Meals That Heal” in the microwave. The bowl is so hot you can’t touch it, but my food, it is hardly warm. Just the chill from the fridge is removed.

Oooo this is very interesting…

Patience, patience, patience.

Develop, develop, develop.

In your own time.

Take your time. Let it be. Let it be. Let it be.

You can not force, you can not let yourself burn hot on the outside and burn up before you are done being made ready. You are in the oven but do not for a moment imagine that you are the oven too. You are not in this alone. Remember your guides. Remember the TRUTH. Let go and let God. Let us do our job, we know what we are doing. Do you TRUST us? Can you receive us? Can you allow us to prepare you? You will know when the timer has gone off. You may still need a few more bits of time. That is okay. TRUST. FAITH. We will not let you burn. Only the ego will let you burn.

I obey! I can hear, I can listen. I can only hear the TRUTH now so I am able to TRUST.

Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

No confusion here…

“Message #1 Received!” (after walking the dogs on 9-4-18)

The dogs keep dragging me back home.

Your place now at this moment is to be home. You are learning the lesson of how to receive. I know it feels almost unbelievable. Trust, faith, accept. Let it be, let it be. Whisper words of wisdom, let it be. Your mind wants to go back to the old habits. Let it go, let it go, let it go. Trust, Faith. this is your mission today. Except your feminine side. Be the vessel to receive. You must be open, you must stay open. Trust, faith, let it be. Go home, stay home, care for your family! Live, play, bring joy and energy back into your home. Peace and love, joy and happiness, care and love.

I can do it! I can do it! Thank you, thank you, thank you.

There is nothing I need do. There is nothing I need do. There is nothing I need do.

Be open.  Be willing.  Be alert.  Be attentive.

Receive, receive, receive.

Receive your guidance. Sit back and receive your abundance. Sit back and receive the world on a silver platter.

Man… If this isn’t the exact opposite of the “core of fear” I don’t know what is.

I accept these as TRUTH. I accept the challenge! I honor the Bliss that is being presented to me now.

Learn to express who you really are in your home first. Practice, let it unfold. Learn how to be, learn how to love, learn how to accept, learn how to share, learn how to receive.

WOW thank you Sparkle you are the best!!!

 

A grateful reminder from Aug 12, 2018

I have forgotten this side of me, lighthearted and playful. That is where joy is found. So free and innocent. Easy breezy.  All of my family, all grownups, forget, dismiss, disengage, reject this part of them and that is why the world is so sad. So serious, so important, such responsible, so angry, so stressed, so tired, so weary, so disenchanted, so unhappy. This is all so unnecessary. It is all the ego playing its own game of separation. Work hard, work harder, forget, forget, forget till it is gone. But it can never be gone. It is the truth, it is our true nature. It just needs to be acknowledged and given its rightful place as a true kind of the magic garden. The zoo seems so real, but disappears as you re-enter the magic (miracle garden). Truth is free, is cost nothing. It grows in abundance and flourishes as sunflowers in a field. Once you open the door it floods in. The truth can never be forgotten. Play, jump, run all for joy without purpose or for any outcome or defined goal. Who are you hiding from?

Highest aspect of myself, I wish for you to join with me in my every day, in my every moment, in my every thought. I release now the ego part of my mind into your loving hands to transmute as it must be done. I have faith, I feel complete. I love you and I am very joyous to find that you have been waiting for me to run back into your arms. I can play again, life is not serious. I live now from a new Core. The Core of lightheartedness. Thank  you, thank you, thank you. I am truly honored and truly grateful. I can wish to be even more grateful now for my sweet soul of light and joy and love and connection to all. There is no fear because there is no longer anything fearful in my world. I will now care for my communication devise in a way that fosters only a clear connection to you my friend, my truth, my joy, my one self.

Is there anything you would like to share with me now?

We are all singing your praises and we are all so pleased that you have joined with the cosmic federation of light. We will contact you when the time is right to join in our joy in creation of a new plant, idea, new world, new way of living. It is actually the true way, the way is was always ment to be. You were all just playing but somehow you forgot that and put the bars around your walls and windows. All just a game and yet so destructive, so unfair, so sad. Yet joy is here now because we are together again. Dancing in the fields together in rejoicing and wonder at what you can be now. Experience now. Create now. Remembering your true nature. Our true nature, living it, loving it, playing a new game.

A game for life, a game of love, a game for all. Play, be free, be lighthearted, be joyful. Why would you chose anything else now that you understand that we are together at last. We were never apart but the veil was so clouded. You always knew. I always knew it wouldn’t be long till you could see me again. Join with me now and always. See with wonder what each day can bring. Always look to all in relation to this truth of connection. It is everyones birthright. It is the only way that really is.

Lighthearted daughter, you are a magnificent being and we are rejoicing in your beautiful soul, all your fragmented parts are coming together. No longer separated by doubt and misguided perceptions. Always look to me, always see only the connection to all and you will experience the new world you know to be true, you know to be here now. The possibilities are endless. Stay open, seek me in all you do, see, desire. I can give it all to you in each moment. Stay awake, stay peaceful, stay hopeful, stay joyful and know that we are one. I love you my sweet child, daughter, friend, niece, everything. Go, connect with  your family. They are all waiting for you to rejoin the clan. Bring the joy, bring the freedom, the laughter back to your clan.

There you will remember and so be able to share with your larger clan and move outward in lighthearted joy. A gift that should never be taken lightly because although it seems so natural to you there are so many of our sisters and brothers who have forgotten and can not remember without a guide. Share you new freedom. We will guide you. Do not plan, do not try, do not worry, do not act without. One step at a time, one moment at a time. You have been so long behind the veil. First you must live this newly experienced lifting of the veil before you can create assistance in your self. Be, be, be. Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy. Live, live, live. Play, play, play. There is nothing else you need to do. There is nothing else you need to be. Play, live, love, share your joy. It is contagious, it is open to you now. It is open to all. Let go, let go, let go of the doing. Let go of the attachment to outcome. You can and you will succeed at being you. There is nothing else that is being asked of you. You are never being judged, there is no need. You are perfect, you are whole, you are complete. You have never been anything but this. So much work it has been to forget. So much focus and attention has been spent looking away. Do not spend another moment in anything but TRUTH.  The truth of you, of Me, of us together united in strength. I will never leave you. Trust, faith and joy is all that you will experience from this moment forward. I love you, we love you. We are all pleased to celebrate your return. Go play, go live, go in peace and love and joy. Know your true core and you will always be free.

Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

And thank you for this reminder!  It is just what I needed today.

 

I Don’t Want This Blog

I CAN PLAY AGAIN

I can play again. Something has shifted.

I can play again. Something has definitely changed.

I can play again. The weight has been lifted. I was never alone.

I can play again. I am happy.

I can laugh again. I am free.

Can everyone come along?

Not yet! I am afraid. I can’t be sucked back in! Not now. I am free.

I want my own way now. I want my own mind. I need time to recharge. I need time to align.

My wings are getting stronger. I still need support.

I can play now. Who will I let in? I am starting over. What will I learn?

I don’t want your opinion. I don’t need your ideas. I can play now. LEAVE ME ALONE!

Man… am I still in the box?

It is impossible now. I thought I was free. Am I still blind?

I have not lost my way. It is impossible now. I am not starting over. I am starting a new.

A new being is emerging. I don’t want to play at all anymore. I don’t want to do this over. I have not lost my way.

This is like nothing I could ever imagine. Let it go, let it be. Do not judge. Do not decide. Let it go, let it be.

Let it happen now. Do you want wings or this body?

Remember your goal…

Truth and Sanity

I can play all I want. What do I want?

What on earth are you thinking? Remember, remember, remember.

Stay awake, stay awake, stay awake. The fight is over. You will never lose yourself again.

Everyone can join me so that I can play forever and be happy.

Joy is not found with the like-minded. Joy is found when you lose your mind.

 

Thank you Sparkle Diamond for helping me get to that last line!

You are most welcome! Nothing is wasted if the lesson is learned.

The Moment Has Past

I just got word that my cousin’s husband is in a coma.  A massive brain hemorrhage. I feel the desire to run to her side. Spend time with her, be there for her as this moment unfolds.  I just realized that this is the opposite of my old state of being. I would run from the pain, others grief, or my own. Lack of money was helpful, a useful tool to keep me from getting close. Keep me apart, a separate entity, hiding, always hiding. Oh yes, I could send a word of sympathy, of prayer. Yet ever grateful for the space between.

Sparkle Diamond is not afraid!

She wants to be close, to move in, close the gap.

It is your turn now, I have let go of the reigns. Make it happen, I am here. I let go of the reigns.

Send the means, send the money, send the time, send the space. Make it easy, make it clear. I am here.

I am not afraid.

I am a fire breathing dragon of love soaring at and into any opportunity to sparkle and shine. Closing the gab. I am here.

He has passed over now. I missed the moment. It happened so fast.

Close the gap.

Monday, September 3, 2018

It is weird but the days have meaning again. Like when you were a kid. I am excited and ready to develop and express being from this new found “Core of Peace”.  I have complete faith in the present moment. I have complete trust in this present moment. How wonderful to let go of the idea of planning. How wonderful to let go of the ideas of striving, achieving, working, toiling.  I have nothing to do except be ready and willing with joyful anticipation. How wonderful to let go of control, of the need to know. How wonderful to let go of attachment to outcome. I am carefree as a child.

Sparkle and shine. There is nothing to do. Sparkle and shine I just have to be.

BE READY, BE WILLING, BE OPEN, BE AWARE, BE GRATEFUL, BE AVAILABLE

The day has begun, how will I express my core? How will I stretch my new wings? Strong and Magnificent. I love these new wings! I love this new core! I love this new feeling of freedom. No worries, no cares. It is not my responsibility anymore. I am free, no more doors, no more boxes or walls. What will I notice? What can I believe?

What does Sparkle want to achieve? I don’t care, it is her turn. I am here for the ride! How exciting, I am free. I fly free with this dragon.  Ask questions? I can’t, that would ruin everything.

The “Core of Fear” has many questions indeed.

I have picked my side, there in no going back, or forward for that matter.

How simple, how easy, how free. How peaceful to just be.

Gratefully yours, Sparkle Diamond